with a heart heavy in sadness. No blogging for months really. I have not had much to say as I have been at a loss for words, a loss for joy, a loss for all things that used to lift my spirits and make me happy.
The pain will metamorphasize from being constant and all consuming -- to lying in wait making itself known when laying eyes upon certain photographs, particular books, or the landscape of the sea - for all those things will forever remind me of you.
I need to get back to my life - to find happines in the things I once enjoyed. To realize that although there is now an even bigger whole in my life, in my heart - I still have life to live with people that I love and who love me back. And that finding things to laugh and smile about again - is what you would want for me.
I love you both so much. You made me who I am.