Wednesday, August 14, 2013

Trying Very Hard to Mentally Prepare Myself for Saturday....

SATURDAY.... is move in day at Meredith.

She says, "We have to be there by 7:30
 because \move in starts at 8:00
and WE must be there
before everyone else.

Doesn't she realize I want to drag this
out as long as possible?

But I don't want to be there.
 I don't want HER to be there.  Yes I do.
No I don't.    What the hell is wrong with me?

I am so elated that she is going to begin living out her life....
making all of those BIG dreams come true.

Yet I am absolutely devastated she is leaving.
She is still just a little girl - I say.
"It's time to let go," - he says.

 "Don't worry Mom -
it's my time now" - she says.

"She'll be fine.  It's OUR TIME now," - he says.

 I'm happy one minute.
Sad the next.
Is this normal?
Does it go away?

I feel like she is leaving...
and taking my heart
with her.

Why do they have to grow up?
I'm just not ready for this.
I'm really not.



made by ChrissieD said...

You sum up my feelings/emotions too well - mines currently in Seville until next Thursday and then I've got 13 days until she's gone. Big hugs to you x

The Idaho Beauty said...

Not a mom so I can't speak to this from your perspective, but I do think it's normal. I seem to remember my own mother with the proud "get the heck out of here and experience the world" shove followed by the "but don't go too far..."

If you didn't love her, if she didn't mean so much to you, you wouldn't care so much, you wouldn't hurt. It's a girl thing - lol!

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