Trying Very Hard to Mentally Prepare Myself for Saturday....

SATURDAY.... is move in day at Meredith.

She says, "We have to be there by 7:30
 because \move in starts at 8:00
and WE must be there
before everyone else.














Doesn't she realize I want to drag this
out as long as possible?

But I don't want to be there.
 I don't want HER to be there.  Yes I do.
No I don't.    What the hell is wrong with me?















I am so elated that she is going to begin living out her life....
making all of those BIG dreams come true.

Yet I am absolutely devastated she is leaving.
She is still just a little girl - I say.
"It's time to let go," - he says.














 "Don't worry Mom -
it's my time now" - she says.

"She'll be fine.  It's OUR TIME now," - he says.



















 I'm happy one minute.
Sad the next.
Is this normal?
Does it go away?


I feel like she is leaving...
and taking my heart
with her.

Why do they have to grow up?
I'm just not ready for this.
I'm really not.


Ughhhhhh.